Millenium by Chris Damitio
What are you planning to do for the big millenium celebration. My friend Tracy is going on a luxury cruise to the Virgin Islands. That sounds prety good. Her husband Mike has decided to stay home and lock himself in the closet with a 12 gauge! Ringin in the New Year with a blast, if someone comes to take his sports coats!Tough to say what I’ll do. Probably spend it camping in the San Juans or sitting on a mountain top somewhere. Like hell I want to be anywhere near where huge groups of people will be celebrating. When I was a teenager, I used to love big parties. Whoopee! A kegger and theres 45 people there getting piss drunk. Even in high school, that was a recipe for a few fist fights, lots of drunk driving, and probably some poor girl getting date raped. About the last thing I want to do is be penned into some city center with 30 thousand drunks. I would be willing to bet at least one of them will be carrying a gun, and a few of those guys who liked to fight in high school never grew out of it, trust me. Spending the turning of the millenium kissing a stranger sounds kind of dangerous. I’m sure 80,000 rednecks will be firing their rifles in the air, where will the bullets come down. Maybe a mountain top isn’t such a good idea. I like to think some day, I’ll be alive to tell my children about the night nothing happened. Might make some sort of a difference where I spend it.
THE UNITED STATES OF AMERICA by Chris Damitio
I like my country. I like the land and I like the people. I know it is quite in vogue right now to bash America, point out all her flaws and weaknesses, but there are a lot of really great advantages to living here. I mean basically, you can decide what and who you would like to be. If what you’re doing isn’t making you happy, you can quit. Figure out what makes you happy and then find a way to make your living doing it. I ‘ve noticed that all the people I know with happy, satisfying lives have done just that. Maybe not always consciously, but look around. I bet most of the happy people you know are doing whatever it is that makes them happy. Doesn’t that make sense? Somebody wants to pay you for whatever you like doing. You just need to do it. Which reminds me of my one piece of hatemail. Don’t forget , all hatemail will be read. Heres the letter:
ramblin man huh? You are not worthy to bear the name of
the allmans greatest song ever. I hate you. why would you
call yourself that. Of all the names in the world. Why……..?
#1 allmans fan.
Thank you for the hatemail. It’s my first and I’m very excited about it! Now, Why a Ramblin Man? It’s a question I’ve been asked many times. It has nothing to do with the Allmans, more with my penchant for random discourse and homelessness. I never called anyplace home before moving to Fairhaven.
Fairhaven by Chris Damitio
I absolutely love where I live. Mountains, coastline, lakes, streams. The natural beauty is incredible, but everybody knows that. I love where I live. I live in Fairhaven
About 100 years ago, what is now called Bellingham was made up of Whatcom, Bellingham, Sehome, and Fairhaven. Fairhaven was a swinging litttle boomtown. Brothels, bars, and hotels lined the streets, including the fanciest hotel that had ever been built in the Pacific Northwest, The Fairhaven. Mark Twain and William Howard Taft both stayed there.It was all in anticipation of Fairhaven becoming the terminus for the Northern Railroad, but the railroad never came. But that wasn’t the end.Fairhaven remained distinct as a home to adventurous spirits and free thinkers. In the 1950’s, 60’s and 70’s Fairhaven was a natural gathering place for the beat generation, hippies, protesters, and intellectuals. The Canadians turned back fleeing progressive youth who settled here. Sure, it’s a little “gift shoppy” these days, but wait til’ the Cruise Industry comes!
Coast Gaurd ships and even the Rainbow Warrior have already graced our little town. Fairhaven has everyting but a disco, an auto parts store, and a music shop for cd’s and music. Would someone please open those three business’s?
. Here is my promised review of a few places:
1) Bob’s burgers and brew-huge burgers and fries. Bukowski-like bar and regulars. Fantastic Sunday Brunch. A little spendy, but good.**1/2
2)Skylarks has great atmosphere and tasty food. ****
3)Winns has the best butterscotch shakes in town.Cheap and not corporate!***1/2
4)The Chat Noir is the classiest joint in town!****
and I had another *** for The Daily Wrap, but I see they are closed. What a bummer. I think it happened because they raised the price of their basic black bean and rice wrap.Add The Daily Wrap to my list of auto parts, music, and disco.
Ego by Chris Damitio
Soon this will be the column you wait for. Even before you check your horoscope or the “missed connections” section, you will flip here. Y, you ask? Perhaps why 2k? It’s a good question really. Why two thousand, why not measure with a different system, then we can miss all the unpleasantness which comes with rounded numbers. Our own ten digits have caused us to mystify, glorify, and even worship numbers ending in five and zero
MORE Y2K FUN!!!!
Have you started to prepare your Y2K survival kit yet? It might be a good time to start figuring out what is important to you in our technology dependent, consumer creating, resource depleting, pollution spewing, disgustingly corrupt, and greed driven society. My personal kit contains a sleeping bag, matches, and the following “essential “ items: A big knife, my rambo survival kit, 3 packs of M&M’s, a dirty magazine (just in case everyone else disappears), 47 baseball cards, 7 packs of pepper, and a roll of toilet paper. I can’t think of anything else that means anything to me. The power goes out at midnight and fifteen minutes later a million Canadian troops are gonna burst through the Peace Arch. They’ve been waitng for this. You can’t prepare for Y2K too soon. The year everyone freaks out in. Why two thousand? Why not use a different calendar, then we can miss all the chaos which comes with rounded numbers. Our own ten digits have caused us to mystify, glorify, and even worship numbers ending in zero. The continent was first invaded by Europeans (excluding Vikings) five hundred and seven years ago….That means that in the year 2k, it will also be “year 508”. There’s nothing sinister about “year 508”, except that it coincides with Y2K! It’s sort of fun imagining that society is going to turn into some sort of Mad Max movie. My mother is already stashing canned goods and milkjugs of water in the basement next to her Geiger counter. The Russian silos aren’t protected you know!.Any way you count it, the next nine months will be interesting. My e-mail alone….
. I didn’t really expect a letter asking for advice. I would like to emphasize that I have only asked for hatemail…. I am not a professional therapist, I’ve never been an advice columnist, and quite frankly, I give pretty bad advice. In fact, I am a freak. That being said…..
Dear Ramblin’ Man,
I’ve been enjoying your column. I wonder if
you can help me
with a little problem I’ve been having. My
mother hates my girlfriend. My girlfriend hates
my mother. What should I do? It makes it hard on me because I love them both.
Dear Stuck ,
Invite both of them to an event with you. Then stand them both up. When you don’t show up, their natural woman anger will cause them to bond in their hatred of you. The closer they get, the less likely your girlfriend is to dump you because she won’t want to hurt your mom. Let the women become friends and before you know it they will be in the kitchen together, baking cookies. But remember, free advice is worth what you pay for it. If you have hatemail or Y2K stuff, that’s what I really like. Any hatemail, suggestions or advice can be e-mailed to me at firstname.lastname@example.org. See ya next week with Yo Mama Jokes.
WHY ASK Y2K? by Chris Damitio
Has anyone else noticed that every time you pick up a paper, surf the net, watch the news, or open a magazine theres another story about Y2K? I bet you started reading this article because of the Y2K in the lead. It’s a disturbing trend to see. After all it is only February. I don’t really expect that the fervor wil die down as we get closer to ground zero. How many fruitcakes will convince the weakminded to put on theri Nikes, clutch their nickels, and die to meet the Y2K aliens. Conspiracy theories are already starting to abound. Why would they reveal the secrets of the X-Files unless the world is coming to an end. Doesn’t it make sense? Elvis and Jim Morrison are hiding with JFK and his wife Marilyn calling all the shots. It all starts to come clear. The secret is locked in that insidious program, The Teletubbies. The Reverand Jerry Falwell is right (no pun intended) but Tinky Winky is a decoy. I’m sure the real villain is Po. I watch it over and over hoping to figure out the secret which I know is trapped within Po’s fat red fanny. Did you know the word “fanny” has a meaning which makes mum’s cover their kids ears when the sitcom “The Nanny” comes on in Britain? So that’s what’s happening. It’s all pretty obvious. The answer lies in the development which is going on all around.us. Sure, Bellingham needs new hotels, docks, and trolley cars. But what if it is all to provide a place for “the aliens” to emerge from the Pacific Trench. Bellingham would be the perfect place for them to show up. Nobody would really pay attention to them. Okay, so maybe I’m stretching it a little. But, there is a chance that something is going on. My honest suspicion is that cruisehips will depart from Fairhaven to Alaska soon. I’m actually all for that, even though your typical “cruisers” are about as Alien as it gets. While I was living in Juneau last summer, thousands of them would descend on the town every day! I would sit in the Alaskan Hotel with friends and stare in amazement as they pulled the $5 pricetags from their “fashion sport garbage bag ponchos”. But the upside of the tourist industry is that it provides a huge incentive to preserve and protect the beautiful environment which surrounds us and brings in millions of dollars to local business. So let me say again “ Why ask Y2K?”. Tune in next week for more insightful dialogue about Y2K, or maybe a surprise review of Southside restaurants. I’ve eaten at most of them. If you have any suggestions or hatemail you can e-mail me at email@example.com.
THE PERCEPTION AND USE OF HOT AND COLD FOR HEALING IN DIFFERENT CULTURES.
In China, healers have used the concept of yin and yang to aid in diagnosis and healing for centuries. The Yin-Yang is symbol of harmonious balance between opposites. This balance of opposites is represented by the familiar Tai-Chi (grand-ultimate) which demonstrates the perfection of the whole. In healing, Yin is associated with internal “cold” and decreased function while Yang is associated with external “heat” and increased function. Symptoms of “cold” or external symptoms include: headaches, inability to perspire, and a coated tongue. Symptoms of inner coldness consist of : absence of thirst, vomiting, and diarrhea. For inner “heat” thirst and exhaustion are the indicators. Outer “heat” makes itself known through fevers and rashes .(Palos[1963 p93-95]). When an individual has too much “heat” or “cold” illness results.
Chinese culture is not alone in considering the roles of hot and cold in disease. The roles of hot and cold are considered in healing and in medicine throughout the world. Native American Shamans, biomedical doctors, and traditional Chinese healers all recognize and use the properties of hot and cold to promote wellness. They do not, however, use them or perceive them in the same way.
Healing does not conform to one model in native cultures. There are some practices, however, that occur in a majority of healing traditions. These practices have been generically categorized under Shamanism. It is generally believed in many Native American cultures that disease has its origins in and gains meaning from the spirit world, consequently much Shamanic healing is to preserve and nurture the soul. Shamanism conceives of illness as something that exists apart from the body. In most cases illness enters the body through a loss of personal power. Illness disrupts the balance of the body. Many Shamans use intensive temperature conditions to maintain and restore the body’s natural balance.(Achterberg 1987[pp103-123])
Healing based on the biomedical model is similar to Shamanism in many respects, among these: viewing illness as being primarily based on external causes – viruses, bacteria, etc.; using extreme temperatures to attempt to free the body of an external “enemy/disease”. In recent years biomedical science has discovered components to high and low body temperatures that liberate and protect the body so that it can function in a healthy state. Even the term “cold” has its roots in the body having an ideal balance of heat and cold.
In the biomedical worldview treatments which once would have been considered barbaric, backward, even dangerous are now being tested and used to cure some of the most complex diseases successfully. Some of these include the inhibition of cancerous tumors through raising core body temperature(Achterberg 1987[pp113], raising the temperature of the blood to 112 degrees has successfully pushed fully developed AIDS into remission (Rosen 1994[pp79-80], and operating rooms find that patients who are warmed during surgery recover nearly twice as fast as patients who are not heated (Discover v17 Nov 1996[pp26]).
The use of cold in biomedical healing is also becoming more common. Doctors have found that focusing intense bursts of cold on babies who are born premature, reverses the loss of vision caused by being kept in an oxygen tent (Science News Apr 1996[pp44]). Cryogenics (the deep freezing of bodies or parts of bodies) is giving doctors the time they need to save more lives than ever before.
Traditional Chinese medicine is enjoying a revival as practices once condemned by the biomedical establishment are validated and utilized with results. Often the concept is similar to a biomedical one, but the practice is culturally unacceptable. Moxibustion which provides direct heat to specific points through burning cones or satchels of herbs on the patient. Modern Chinese healers find that merely warming serves the purpose just as well as actual burning of herbal sachets. This is much more acceptable to the “western mind”. In concept moxibustion is very similar to using a heating pad on a sore muscle, only it acknowledges that certain points on the body affect different organs and areas.
In diagnosing the sick, the Chinese healer determines whether the symptoms fall into the hot/cold and internal/external categories. Certain organs are known to be Yin(cold) or
Yang(hot). Based on the principle of balance the healer proscribes treatment accordingly. It is possible to have hot internal symptoms, cold external symptoms, or a mixture of any. The healer must be familiar with hundreds of combinations in order to diagnose many illnesses.(Palos 1963 [p94]).
Shamans often use sweat lodges in order to achieve an altered state of consciousness which allows the healer or, in some cases, the person being healed to confront the force which is causing the illness in the spirit world. It is interesting to note that increased temperature has been found to reflect the body’s natural reaction to toxins in biomedical research. Even the term Shaman comes from the Vedic word Sram which means “to heat oneself”.
It is natural that hot and cold should be used in healing traditions throughout the world because temperature is one of the bodies most powerful voices the body has to tell people when something is wrong. It makes sense that temperature can play a part in the healing of the body. These are only a few practices of a few cultures which use “hot” and “cold”. There are many more which I have not touched on today.
Achterberg, J. Imagery in Healing:Shamanism and Modern Medicine.
Boston/London: Shambhala, 1985
Palos, S. The Chinese Art of Healing
New York: Herder and Herder, 1963
Rosen, M. and Breau, G. Taking the Heat.
People Magazine: 01 August 1994.
Sternberg, S. Pinpoint cold saves sight, not acuity.
Science News: 20 April 1996
Hot Times in the Operating Room
1. 1. Discover: November 1996
by Chris Damitio
THE DEVIL’S GIFT
LOU-SO GAVE UP EVERYTHING.
WALKED AWAY THOUGHT THE KINGDOM
OF HEAVEN WAS OFFERED
FOR ALL THAT IS GOOD, ALONE FROM EVIL
HE COULD NOT ACCEPT- HE SAW THE BEAUTY OF
LOVE- IF YOU WILL.
LOVE BY ITSELF, BEAUTY ISOLATED, IS
LONELY, ASK ANY MARRIED COUPLE.
PAIRED WITH AN OPPOSITE-PEAKS
CAN BE SCALED, FREE OF WILL
CARRIED LIKE A CURRENT
BETWEEN OPPOSING POLES—-OF MAGNETISM.
PLEASURE IS BEST EXPERIENCED AFTER PAIN.
IN TURNING DOWN HEAVEN CHOICE WAS CREATED.
CHOICE. FREE WILL, IF YOU WILL.
SUFFERING SCORCHING KNOWLEDGE, LIKE HELLFIRE
RAISING THE APPRECIATION OF —-
PASTORAL ANGELS PLAYING LUTES.
ALLOWING ONE- OR ALL- TO EXPLORE THE DEPTHS –
FOR THE KNOWLEDGE OF HELL ALLOWS YOU TO RISE MUCH HIGHER–
OR FALL MUCH FURTHER.
DRIZZLE DAYS DEPENDENT
NOT ON SUN
GREY AND NEUTRAL ALL AROUND
ALASKA IS LIKE SOME SORT
OF APHRODISIAC. MAKING ME
ETERNALLY LUSTY- LUSTIER EVEN THAN
ME– IN OTHER PLACES.
HER TOWERING MOUNTAINS PAINT
PICTURES OF LARGE SUPPLE BREASTS
AND I’M REMINDED OF PUBIC HAIR BY
HER FORESTS. CONSTANTLY WET
AND MOVING IN A STATE OF AROUSAL—
BUT SOMEHOW IT DOESN’T SOUND RIGHT
TO SAY – I WANNA FUCK ALASKA-
OR- FUCK ME ALASKA
BUT THE SMELL SO RICH AND
MUSKY. LIKE DIVINITY.
LAND AND SEX.
SEA AND SEX.
SKY AND SEX.
SUMMER ENDING QUICKLY
SUMMER. WHY BASEBALL?
BECAUSE MEN PLAY LIKE CHILDREN
IN AN OVERGROWN LOT?
BECAUSE NOBODY LIKES HAVING
TO PLAY IN THE RAIN.
SUMER. WHAT IS IT?
IS IT THE BERRIES?IS IT THE
SALMON? IN THE STREAMS,
WORKING TOWARDS PROCREATION
NO MATTER THE STRAIN.
SUMMER? WHY EAR CLOTHES?
A Matter of Some Gravity
There are forces in the universe which affect all of our lives. Through the centuries madmen and scientists have tried to recognize and label these forces. The difference between madman and scientist is whether the theories of the individuals are accepted or rejected.
A fundamental premise of the scientific method is that no theory is ever proven true, but if it is unable to be disproven, its validity is generally accepted. Current conventional scientific wisdom says that the universe is curved in time and space. Much of this theory rests on the work of Albert Einstein, especially his theory of relativity (E=MC2). The bending of space and time would be most likely to occur in the vicinity of a massive amount of gravity. A black hole is conjectured to be one of these gravity sinks. In the process of its evolution a star would eventually be acted upon by a contraction of matter, which causes an increase in the gravitational pull at the center of the star. Eventually the matter becomes so contracted that it becomes a single point or singularity. This singularity is so dense that light ( which appears to be one of the only constants in the universe) is unable to escape and so a black hole can be detected as only an absence of anything detectable. The proof of black holes has been that we cannot detect them, however in 1973 Stephen W. Hawking discovered that quantum effects will cause black holes to emit particles, as this happens the black hole will evaporate, leaving none of the original mass, maybe. In such a situation particles are packed so densely together that fundamental movement is arrested on the quantum and molecular level. Time stops. A less than perfect analogy is that of water going through a funnel. At some point the width of the funnel becomes so narrow that the water stops. But instead of going still the water would keep swirling because the force of gravity is still acting upon it from below. At this point the water above the narrowest point of the funnel is pulled into the swirling motion and the curvature of space and time occurs. The swirling causes a stronger gravitational pull which draws in more water which increases the pull drawing in more water etc. etc. etc. Relativity points out that time moves more quickly when acted upon by outside gravity. The closer you are to the source of the gravity, the slower time moves. On a miniscule level this means that the higher your altitude on earth the faster time moves for you since the center of earths gravity is presumed to be somewhere in the center of the earth. If time is arrested inside a black hole how does a particle have time to escape?
A problem arises with paradox. If time is stopped at the center of a black hole, then further collapse is impossible because the collapse occurs in time. This could mean that extending outward form the center of a black hole time would gradually stop leaving a solid body of stopped particles. The singularity no longer exists, the black hole is now an extending solid which changes the entire set of equations which define a black hole. Another problem is that if time is observed to have stopped within the black hole from the outside, what is observed both inside and outside from the black hole? Einstein discovered that space-time is curved by the presence of matter. The famous analogy is a rubber sheet stretched tight with balls of various weights and sizes placed upon it. The larger a body, the larger the curvature of space. The larger the curvature of space, the more other bodies are affected by that curvature. If eneough weight is placed upon the sheet all bodies will fall to the center and movement stops. Time is measured by the movement of matter/energy. If the movement stops, time stops. At the present time the universe is in a state of movement (expansion), debate rages at whether that movement will continue indefinately (infinite) , stop at an outer limit (static), or reach an outer limit and then contract back to a stopping point (clockwork).
Black holes are presumed by some to be regions of such intense gravity that everything (most easily thought of as information by scientists such as Stephen Hawking and Roger Penrose) captured by a black hole is irretrievable. Both scientists agree that a black hole continues to contract until the point of evaporation. It is at his point that they disagree. Penrose believes that at the moment of evaporation information is regained by the universe and phase space volumes increase. Hawking believes that the information is lost which, violates the theories of conservation of matter and energy. His argument is that the beginning and end of the universe ( and hence time) cannot be the same. Through a single small irregularity at the beginning of time, multiple irregularities grew. Therefore we are travelling from a orderly universe to a sloppy one. Another imperfect analogy would be a clean house (the universe) before a party (time), each guest ( irregularity ) creates a small mess, but like good guests, they clean up after themselves. Each partygoer however forgets to wash the glass they are drinking from and at the end of the night despite each person cleaning their mess, the house is filled with glasses of various liquids. Some of the glasses are still full (young stars), some of the glasses are empty (black holes) , most are in a state somewhere in between (stars between formation and collapse). Hawking seems to
be saying that the state of the house never really changed because the glasses and liquid were already there so there are no limits to the universe, things just change position, Penrose on the other hand seems to feel that because the glasses are no longer in the cupboard or the liquid in the bottle a new state has been created which demands that at some point the glasses be washed and put away and the bottles refilled.
What keeps black holes from forming from every bit of matter in the universe? Stars and galaxies radiate heat which causes thermal pressure which acts as a temporary balancing point against gravity. The reason it is temporary is because heat has a tendency to radiate outward (almost as if it is drawn to cold) thus the material which provides the fuel which provides the heat is sent outward in tight little packets of energy called quantum. Quantum actully fill the space between the states of matter and energy, exhibiting properties of both. Thus as the quantum is carried away, the actual matter begins to shrink. If it is no more than two times the mass of our sun, the shrinkage will be stopped on the atomic level by the motion of electrons or neutrons and a neutron star or white dwarf star is formed. For larger mass objects this force is overcome and eventually (according to Hawking ) a black hole forms which keeps mass, energy, and quantum from proceeding outward to the edge of infinity. This is a black hole. Eventually the black hole swallows everything around it including itself leaving behind less than was put into it. Black holes a a massive solid emptyness where time stops but change continues and laws of conservation do not apply. Is it any wonder they also lie at the center of so much debate?
Learning by Chris Damitio
Is it just me or does it bother anyone else that we can’t learn just for the sake of learning?
Rather, if we do we still have to pay for it, so the only benefit we get from it is being more informed, better able to make decisions, and too poor to do anything about the problems we see.
I think that’s a problem. No wonder there are so many people in “college” who don’t want to be here. They (and us, so we) are faced with a choice of drudgery making pennies so someone else can make considerably more or suffering for a few years while we build up debt, taking classes that may not interest us but are required to fulfill a curriculum someone else has decided is appropriate for the job we may want. Welcome to a screwed up world. First of all decide what you want to be (never mind that you are reasonably uninformed about what is out there or what it requires.) Next, talk to a counselor who will recommend which courses you should take for what you think you want to do. Then strap yourself in for a ride. For many students new opportunities open up as they learn, seemingly unrelated classes lead to new insights. Many classes that I would be enthusiastic about are effectively not open because I have fulfilled my requirements in those areas ( I could take them, but hoping to go into debt as little as possible, I try to finish up my “degree” as quickly as possible.)
James took his coat off and hung it on the peg,, where it always was, waiting for him to take it wherever he went. He walked into the kitchen, melancholy, and full of wonder as his mind thought back to the days of his youth. Working on Yachts and falling in love at every port until the list of loves became like a list of books you’ve read. It no longer was a simple question to answer about how many women he’d slept with or how many times he’d been in love. He had to second guess himself. In recent years he’d answered with “ Ou don’t really want to know that” and if pressed he would say “4”. Bizarre world in which you were expected to keep your own score as you went and nearly every other person was keeping their own “score”. It turned it into a giant competition. Life was probably confusing enough without developing this incredibly complex game called Love. It was a constant battle to remain afloat in the overcrowded sea of humanity.
He set his briefcase down and walked into the living room, grabbing a banana as he passed through the kitchen. He sat in his lazy boy recliner and reached for the remote control after rocking the lever back as far as it would recline. Kicking off his shoes he wondered to himself: “ Why are my socks so nice. Why do they have designs woven into them. Not so much.because I like them, but as a part of the game. At some point I determined that Nice socks would make it simpler to seduce women.”
He kicked off his shoes one at a time. Right foot first, then left foot. They dropped to the floor just beneath the footrest of the recliner. He knew they would get in the way when he went to un-recline, but at this point he didn’t care. Later he would be annoyed with himself for creating more work for his later self. Life is like that. The now you is usually making decisions for the later you, invariably they are lousy decisions. Maybe you get it right more often as you get older, but you still screw up in a big way. Hindsight is 20/20, Foresight is often blind. If we knew the future would we let it happen, or would we change the future, making it unknowable. Knowing too much is worse than knowing nothing sometimes.
What if you knew you’re destiny and hated it? Would you create it by trying to evade it? In which case would you have created it without the knowledge. Does the universe have clockwork motion which gives us 70 or 80 years before we have to return to our places? What do we want? Now is the time to communicate with our future selves so that we don’t regret any decisions later, make the best decisions possible. What should I do? Do what your think is right. Don’t hold back n your beliefs, explore them, trust them, make the most of your hunches and talents. It isn’t really what you think that counts, do you get what I’m saying? It makes sense to live your life as if every decision is your last. When does it end? We don’t know. I t goes on as long as it goes on so make yourself at peace today. Find what it is you need to do. What you would regret in your last moments. So what if you thought it would go on, you’d have more time. You don’t that is the nature oft eternity. The world isn’t the friendliest place in the universe. It is made to solve problems. Think of the world as a laboratory.The picture you had as a child was not entirely wrong. The Universe, God is a consciousness, which works in a clockwork fashion to an ultimate goal. Humanity and life is actually a way to solve certain theoretical problems. Life is placed within the universe in various situations to which the best solution is found to adaptation. I is not the word of anything. Each planet not a laboratory, but a test tube contained within the vast laboratory that Is the universe. The giant technicians must extract samples to trace enhancement and evolution to environment…i/e ufos, abductions, disappearance, etc. if birds didn’t exist would flight be thought of.