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Manifesto of a Cultural Terrorist by Oscar Wallace

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The Netflix show Messiah has drawn a lot of attention to this document and the pseudo-fictional identity of Oscar Wallace. It’s one of those ‘this is a work of fiction’ moments that really isn’t. I’ll keep digging for it – so far this is what I have found – I will add more as I find more – please add any interesting bits you find in the comments and on Twitter. You will likely find these reflections on Sept 11, 2001, a regulated society, societal responsibility of the individual, and authority in an anarchist society of interest as well.

Update: We think it’s highly probable that Professor Wallace left several voicemarkers on the Iwahai voice map – among them the ones on the White House in Washington D.C, and Mar a Lago in Florida.

The Manifesto of a Cultural Terrorist by Oscar Wallace

The squeaky wheel gets the grease, or so it is said. Though, in some cases, the squeaky wheel inspires just enough annoyance and loss of sleep that it brings the victim to an epiphany – an idea that might not otherwise seem worthwhile, rational or possible. It may be that the role of violence and fear in terrorism has been vastly over rated by those who use it. Terrorism, after all, is simply a course of political action where no other means is available. Yes, violence is one means – but not a very good one because as the Buddha said – there is no cure for violence except an act of love – and in our world – acts of love are nearly never adjudicated, legislated, or ordered. So, violence, as we have seen countless times simply begets more violence – and those who have the most power usually have the ability to enact the greatest violence leading to spirals of genocide like we’ve seen burst out in Syria, Iraq, Afghanistan, and elsewhere. Make no mistake – these are acts of genocide. The bombing and starving of a million Iraqi children is not ‘peace keeping’. We see that which you worship and we despise it.

There is no such thing as an absence of worshiping. Everybody worships. The atheist worships their life. The deist worships their god. The capitalist worships their power. The masses worship their masters. The only choice we get is what to worship. The most compelling reason for choosing some sort of god or spiritual-type thing to worship is that anything else you worship will eat you alive. If you worship money and things, if they are where you tap real meaning in life, then you will never have enough, never feel you have enough. It’s the truth. Worship your own body and beauty and sexual allure and you will always feel ugly, and when time and age start showing, you will die a million deaths before they finally plant you. On one level, we all know this stuff already – it’s been codified as myths, proverbs, clichés, bromides, epigrams, parables: the skeleton of every great story. The trick is keeping the truth up front in daily consciousness. We believe that the sacred cows must be slaughtered.

However, our goal here is not to rationalize violent terrorism. Our goal is to present an alternative: Cultural Terrorism. I am a cultural terrorist and thus far – no one has died because of my acts – nor do I expect anyone to. I certainly hope that no life is lost in the pursuit of a better world.. Cultural Terrorism does not kill people, it simply confuses them and causes them to consider ideas that might not otherwise seem worthwhile, rational or possible.

A terrorist who hijacks an airplane or plants a bomb in a crowded shopping center apparently doesn’t care who gets hurt as long as they achieve their aim. That innocent people are turned into bloody corpses or maimed for life is not a concern. The cultural terrorist is no different. The cultural terrorist, an assassin of the future, an executioner of obscene morality. Cultural terrorism, an attitude, a state of mind – not a set of values to be dogmatically followed. Cultural terrorism is a celebration of the power of the individual to affect the future from the present.

Our aim is to pollute the minds of the public, to sow the seeds of sanity into an insane society. The victims are of all ages – everybody from the cradle to the grave – and we aim to liberate them. Man cannot bear too much reality and as a result of this the cultural terrorist is in the business of providing a reality attack. An over exposure of reality that brings down the curtain- the dirt behind the day dream. No subject is taboo, all must be exposed. No one is sacred. Everybody as well as everything should feel the wrath of the cultural terrorist. The object of cultural terrorism is to exploit situations and people in order to cause a change that no one sees coming. Our aim is to make war upon the concepts and foundations of civilization itself. We will tear into the heart of all that is considered normal but which is truly foul. We are the white blood cells that would painfully destroy bio-toxins even if it destroys our host culture. We are working to erase the conforming instinct. To prevent humanity from ever acting with a lemming’s will.

The cultural terrorist’s weapons are a digital media, film, video, audio cassettes, music, photocopiers, printed words, pictures – any media whatsoever is acceptable as long as it achieves the objective. We are little concerned how much our material appeals to the very lowest of emotions, or how much the material twists and pollutes controlled minds. We believe nothing is impossible, there is no god stopping us, there is no morality compelling us, so we manipulate our environment to its fullest extent. Plagiarism is not only acceptable it is preferred. We believe that you should not be afraid to steal from anyone and that property itself is an affront. Our way is that of the liar and trash receptor. We know that the bigger the lie the better the chance of people believing it but also know that small lies sometimes carry a heavy load. Undercover communication is the enemy of crime not politics.

Elaborate safeguards may be placed at airports to separate would-be terrorists from their weapons. But we, the cultural terrorists are free to distribute our soul confusing information to whom and where we choose. The cultural terrorist is neither benevolent nor evil. Pull the wool over your own eyes in a call to arms. We feel vehemently that an active role of participation should be taken in this struggle by people already interested in this form of warfare. The cultural terrorist is involved in every act of revolutionary suicide while protesting the conditions of an inhuman world. Cultural terrorism is the antidote to this society and our thought-bombs will tear open wounds that may never again heal. Tomorrow belongs to us. Confusion as a weapon. Confusion as the word.

Confusion sparks the need to question. Confusion calling the adrenaline to flow, the blood rush and the life force to sit up and take a break while the soul of present civilization floods. Confusion making us question everything in search of (un)sense. Everything deserves to be probed into. Indulging in whatever subjects we are attracted to. Making our lives more interesting while stripping false meaning from the lives of those surrounding us. No subject holds a taboo. Unrecognizable confusion superimposed on boring reality.

We stand everywhere and nowhere. We wade in cool rivers and do forced marches through waves of dogshit. We provide the tickets for a mindfuck to oblivion … A disjointed, chaotic and rapidly decaying globe is our target. Gladly we take our part in the ejaculation of war in a heedless way. Ours is a wide open mouth sucking the balls of a busty woman. Ours is a wide open gut-wound wrapped around a throbbing shaft of capitalism. Ours is the shitting of the junk food you line up to consume. This stink and defiance of dead unicorns wrapped in bloody blankets protesting too much free candy and not enough mescaline. We face backwards to fuck off from “peer group pressure”. No attempt is made to conform, no attempt to speak explanation or confront truth nor power in the manufactured words that decry consent. Their words and our actions. We fight against those who would control our minds and our bodies, we offer hope to those born into chattel information slavery, and we offer our bodies as the bullets that will destroy your mental infrastructure. In this our weapons are our very lives.

We smash and we run but only to smash and run. We leave the capitalist control systems unable to conduct business and yet uninjured but totally useless. We remain uninjured and leave the looting for those who don’t know any better, stuff is a burden we do not need for fulfillment.

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Who's Afraid of ACORN?

I used to be a community organizer for ACORN back in 2000. We registered a lot of people to vote, but we never told them how to vote. We worked in very poor neighborhoods in the Seattle area and as such, it is likely that most of the people we registered voted for social justice. This could mean that they didn’t vote Republican, but we had no way of knowing. We didn’t pick the neighborhoods because they were left or right, we picked them because they had low voter turnout. Also, we tended to register people in the neighborhoods we were organizing. As I recall, I organized people to get better garbage service, more police in the neighborhood, better landlord-tenant laws, and even a crosswalk on a busy road that schoolkids had to cross to get to their classes. None of these issues strike me as left or right, simply necessary.

Today, the McCain-Palin campaign released the Web ad attacking Barack Obama for his ties to ACORN. It’s important to understand the deep roots of the right’s fear and loathing of ACORN and the lengths they’ve gone to t stifle the group’s efforts to broaden Americans’ electoral participation.
Last summer, I reported in Shelterforce magazine on the Republican-directed vendetta against voter registration, orchestrated from the White House against those, like the grass-roots anti-poverty group ACORN, who have a history of working to register poor and minority voters. The vendetta backfired and helped lead to the firing of New Mexico’s U.S. attorney David C. Iglesias, who infuriated state GOP operatives for failing to go after voter-fraud allegations with sufficient zeal.
ACORN came under White House fire after registering more than 1.6 million voters in the past two national elections: mostly poor and minority people who tend to vote Democratic, and mostly in swing states. Republican operatives went after ACORN hard, with a media smear campaign, trumped-up lawsuits in Florida, New Mexico, and Ohio, and pressure on state law-enforcement officials to file criminal charges against the group. Days before the 2006 election, a U.S. attorney in Kansas City brought a voter-fraud indictment against four people registering voters for ACORN, spurring a congressional investigation led by Iowa’s Republican Sen. Charles Grassley.
The GOP voter-fraud vendetta might have remained exactly where Bush loyalists wanted it—below the radar of the press—had it not been for the scandal surrounding the firing of eight U. S. attorneys, including David C. Iglesias of New Mexico. Iglesias lost his job in December 2005 after he declined to prosecute a voter-fraud case against ACORN, which had been registering large numbers of voters in the state’s low-income and largely minority neighborhoods in 2004. Prominent New Mexico Republicans, including U.S. Senator Pete Domenici, had repeatedly complained to chief White House political strategist Karl Rove about Iglesias’ failure to bring voter-fraud indictments. Once Iglesias said he couldn’t prove a case against ACORN, his days were numbered.
ACORN became a target because of its successful voter-registration work. As the 2004 election approached, then-Attorney-General John Ashcroft launched a broad initiative to crack down on supposed voter fraud in battleground states, including Florida, Missouri, Ohio, and New Mexico, where ACORN was making headway registering voters. In all of those states, Republicans filed suits against ACORN for voter fraud, and, in every case, ACORN was exonerated.
Nevertheless, conservative media continued to smear the group. In October of 2004, right-wing news outlets pounced on a story about the organization mishandling voter forms and, according to Rush Limbaugh, “trying to register voters two and three times.” Two years later, after the 2006 election, the Wall Street Journal promoted claims that ACORN was under scrutiny for election irregularities with one headline blaring, “A union-backed outfit faces charges of election fraud.” An editorial included an allegation—that ACORN gave cocaine to a worker in exchange for fraudulent registrations—that was a complete fabrication.
After Al Gore beat George W. Bush in New Mexico by just 366 votes in 2000, the state became the site of a bitter battle over voter registration. By the fall of 2004, as the race between Bush and John Kerry tightened, ACORN had signed up more than 35,000 voters statewide. But one of the new voters turned out to be a 13-year-old son of a Republican policeman. State Republicans filed a lawsuit against ACORN.
The suit was dismissed for lack of evidence, Iglesias announced at a press conference that he would look into the matter, declaring, “It appears that mischief is afoot, and questions are lurking in the shadows.” But, by January 2005, Iglesias concluded that his voter-fraud task force had not turned up enough evidence to bring a fraud case against ACORN. By early December 2005, he had been fired.
In theory, the U.S. attorney scandal should have made it harder for the Bush administration to continue to level baseless charges of voter-fraud in an effort to challenge the registration of poor and minority voters. But the Justice Department’s Civil Rights Division had hired 11 lawyers from the conservative Federalist society, including two people from the Bush-Cheney campaigns.
The intense media attention to Attorneygate didn’t curb the GOP penchant to play the politics of voter fraud. To hold on to the White House, right-wing Republicans can’t afford to quit using the right-wing echo chamber including FBI, U.S. attorneys, and Fox News to harass advocacy groups such as ACORN for signing up new voters.
To be sure, ACORN was not stopped in its tracks. As Matt Henderson, one of ACORN’s organizers, told me, “We will never be intimidated by baseless legal attacks.”
In 2008, to the distress of the Republicans, ACORN mounted its current voter-registration drive. Along with Project Vote, ACORN undertook an aggressive voter-registration campaign in 16 states including Ohio, Florida, Michigan, New Mexico, and Pennsylvania to help close the historic gaps in the American electorate that have misrepresented the true demographic breakdown of the American population.
Historically, the average voter has been older and wealthier than the average American. With registration and voting rates of low-income Americans, African-Americans, Latinos, and youths significantly lagging behind other demographics, the new voters that Project Vote and ACORN helped register came primarily from these historically disenfranchised groups.
It is sad that more than 40 years after passage of the voting rights act, the efforts by the Bush White House and the right-wing Republicans continue to intimidate minority voters. It reminds us that the agenda of the civil-rights movement remains unfinished. The outcome of the 2008 presidential race may well hinge on whether the right-wing strategy or the ACORN strategy prevails.

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Home DNA tests, auctioning NASA, 10 years of Bin Laden messages, Jesus Laughing at 73,000 homeless in L.A.

Just spit in the tube and find out what your genetics predispose you to…Read more about the Spit Parties at New York Times.

Also, another sign of the times, NASA is auctioning off its patents:

25 NASA patents will be auctioned off this coming October. “The sale, which will include rights to signal processing, GPS for spacecraft and sensor technologies, is the first auction under a partnership announced earlier this month between Goddard’s Innovative Partnerships Program (IPP) and Ocean Tomo Federal Services LLC. Ocean Tomo provides a marketplace for intellectual property, which NASA wants to leverage in commercializing its technology.”

Maybe with a DNA test and sensor technology we could determine if Osama was responsible for 9-11. Ten years of leaked messages indicate that he may not be.

The documents were translated and the messages and interviews were authenticated by the US CIA. “The nearly three hundred page, ‘official use only’ packet from 2004, translated by the Foreign Broadcast Information Service, a division of the CIA, includes interviews with bin Laden from various news agencies and also includes messages he sent directly to the US from the periods of 1994 to 2004. One message includes bin Laden’s denial of having anything to do with the September 11, 2001 attacks in New York City, Washington DC, and Pennsylvania.”

And Grizzly Adams is painting pictures of Jesus Laughing

Maybe he is laughing about the 73,000 homeless in L.A.

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Help me pay for travel and get a cool book!

Want to help me travel and get a cool book for $10? Here is how:

I know lots of people are struggling right now and you guys have heard me tell about my finances. In a nutshell, here they are: I graduate in December. I would like to travel for a while and blog about it along the way. Since I’ve had some problems with financial aid and it’s expensive to live in Hawaii and tourism (which I work in) is drastically down (and so I’m not earning much), it’s not looking good in terms of travel. Even a vagabond needs an initial poke of cash to jump from Hawaii to the next destination.
I’ve been in the process of getting rid of my stuff through giving it to friends, selling it, or putting it at the free store. The thing is, I’ve still got a lot of books that I haven’t been able to bring myself to give away or sell for the pennies that I’ve been offered for them at the local used book store. These are cool books. There is beat poetry, African, Chinese, and Indonesian art books, classic fiction, science fiction, first editions, collectible old books, and just really cool stuff. Time is running short and I need to start getting rid of these, I can’t fool myself any longer, I won’t be getting around to reading them…not with my busy semester and travel ahead.
So here it is.
$10 to me gets you a cool book and goes into my travel kitty. Trust me, there are adventures to come once I have satisfied my desire to get a degree. This is your chance to be a part of it…and get a cool book that you’d have a hard time getting for $10 (and that includes shipping).

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Cross dressing thief, Palin is a book-hater, Republican hating anarchists, and we are all John McCain's freinds.

Dear Terror Suspect,
I’m worried about Florida and the Republicans, what should I do?

Hi KM,
Don’t worry, here is why I love the idea of Florida:

Police in Port St. Lucie are on the lookout for a cross-dressing man who snatched a 74-year-old woman’s purse. As if that weren’t odd enough, they’re depending on a strange clue. The suspect left behind a condom filled with water he had been using as a fake breast.

And, if you don’t love Florida (or anywhere for that matter). Maybe you would like to build your own A-Bomb. Here is the story of two students who did just that.

Now if you don’t love books, you will love Sarah Palin.

Thanks to Bush, the Republican Party is not strongly associated with intellectualism. But Sarah Palin has apparently taken the conservative derision for book-learnin’ to a whole new level: Time reports that as mayor of Wasilla, Palin asked the town librarian how to go about banning books from the local library. News reports from the time show that the librarian, who, strangely enough, was opposed to a tactic commonly employed by totalitarian regimes, had her job threatened for not giving her “full support” to the mayor.

And if you don’t love Sarah Palin, maybe you are a member of the anarchist “RNC Welcoming Committee”

A year ago, the Ramsey County sheriff’s office began looking closely at a group called the Republican National Convention Welcoming Committee. What it found, according to an 18-page search warrant application and affidavit, was an anarchist group that allegedly discussed the possibility of kidnapping delegates, blockading bridges and using liquid sprayers filled with urine or chemicals on police.

How could anyone think of such a thing? Especially since to listen to him, we are all John McCain’s friends (My Friends….lofl)
And if you aren’t John McCain’s friend, then maybe you should think about living on the moon, mars, or jumping into the nearest black hole.
So don’t worry KM. Florida and the Republicans are all taken care of. Now get back to work so you can eat your ration of bread and water.

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The Real New World Order

Dear Terror Suspect,
Did you like the Olympic opening ceremonies? What about the Olympics? Do you have a favorite sport in the games?
~Tracy ….Cary, NC

I can’t remember if I wrote about this or not, but I am convinced that the opening games of the Olympics were more than they seemed. Personally, I am fairly certain they were the mark of the center of power in the world being transferred from the United States to China.

Here’s the thing. The moneyed power that sits behind all the thones and has for a long time now, moved capital and power to the United States from the Old World in Europe. Europe had been exploited and divided too many times and it was no longer a safe place to consolidate the wealth of millennia. That is what the world wars were about. They were about making the United States the center of the world where in the past it had been England, Spain, France, or Egypt.
The consolidation worked. Now after a century of using the natural wealth of the U.S. and now leveraging it to the highest degree possible, Capital is moving to a safer place where there is less chance of losing power. China is it.
It is my opinion that the opening ceremonies marked the completion of that transfer. China is now the dominant power in the world. Russia invading Georgia and the future conflict that seems to be coming between the U.S. and Russia will complete the process of turning the U.S. into a second class or perhaps even third world power. This rivalry between the United States and Russia is not to see who is the world power, it is to see who gets to be the second place power. In Olympics terms, we are seeing who gets the silver and who gets the bronze.
For a long while I thought that the E.U. was the future of capital and power, but it was a diversion that fooled many of us.They had no intention of going back to Europe.
Now is the time when the United States of America starts to come apart at the seams. Look for more war, less money, more working hours, less benefits, and an overall not as good life in the future.

Don’t be surprised if this image leaves U.S. currency sometime in the near future. In other words, it might be time for the U.S. to become the center of exploited labor it has turned so many other nations into.
I’m not a huge fan of the Olympics, but I love badminton. It’s the best spectator sport on the planet….next to curling.

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Middle Names

Dear Terror Suspect,
I know your name is Chris Damitio, but what is your middle name?
just curious

I’ve never liked the middle name my mom tacked on me. It’s never really felt like mine. I’ve never used it. It doesn’t fit my religion or my family background. It isn’t a name anyone in my family ever had. I renounce it. I don’t really believe in the validity of the government to tell me it’s okay to have a different name so I won’t pay them to change it. They can keep the one they have for me. But for everyone else, my middle name is ‘The’. Yes, my name is Chris The Damitio. It’s a nice middle name. I may start going by it. Go ahead, yell it. It wreaks havoc on search engines. Thanks for asking.
~C. The Damitio
Now…on to other things…from small skirmishes great wars grow…look how a minor scuffle in Georgia has grown to conflict in the Ukraine and Poland. This won’t get any bigger…really…and the economy is just fine…watch this like right now! (Thanks Releveler!)

Thursday’s report on consumer inflation confirms that rising prices are forcing consumers to lower their standard of living to make ends meet. U.S. consumer prices have taken the biggest year-over-year jump in more than 17 years, according to the latest government data. Prices were 5.6 percent higher in July than they were a year earlier. Energy prices were up 29.3 percent and food costs 6 percent higher.

by the way…the above numbers are far too soft. It is definitely worse…don’t you think?

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America's future. Two funny statistics

Dear terror suspect,
What do you think the future of America looks like?
The Hillster
White Americans will no longer be the majority by 2042 and by 2040 if trends continue all Americans will be obese.
The funny part about this is that it presupposses that there will be such a thing as an American at that time.
Not very likely.

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Dear Terror Suspect: What is your life like? Is it good?

Dear Terror Suspect,
What is your life like? Is it good?
Regards- JJ

I live in a nice little place in Hawaii that has most of what I wanted when I found it. It has a skylight, I don’t have roommates, it has a nice little garden space and a spot to hang my hammock, and it is close to school. In living there a year though, a few things have become issues to me. There is no parking nearby and the road I live on is very busy. This has made it virtually impossible to invite people over. It is connected though separate from my landlord’s house and only a very thin wall separates my living room and kitchen from the landlord’s grandson, an engineer who goes to bed early and wakes up early. This also makes having people over a problem. While it is close to school, it is far enough from the beach that without a car, I rarely go because the bike ride back is almost all uphill…even when I had a car, I had to park several blocks away and as a result wouldn’t use the car very much. Since my neighbors are so close, I hear them fairly often, brushing their teeth, cooking, etc. So I am pretty sure that they hear me too….this is an issue too… I don’t like it very much.
So while I got most of what I wanted in the place, I found that there were new things that I didn’t want. At this point, I’m not sure if it is good or not. Lately I’ve been looking at rental ads and what I see in Hawaii is that rental rates have actually gone up while the real estate market has gone down…so for the $725 a month that I pay, I definitely couldn’t find a place of my own again, or a place with a garden, but for $500 I could share a room with a gay freshman undergrad…lol. I guess my place is good enough for now. The benefits of my place outweigh the downside. So I have a nice place, but I can’t really entertain or share it with other people and I live in a valley that rains a lot instead of going to the beach…either way I get wet.
As to simplifying my life…at this point, not using the phone very much (I have a prepaid cell that I use basically just for work and rarely carry around with me), I don’t have the internet at home, I don’t have a TV, and I don’t have a car (though I do have a bike and a pretty slow and beat up scooter). I end up watching a couple of movies a week on my laptop (free from the library) and usually on Sunday’s I go watch a movie and smuggle in some taco bell, an iced tea, and some sweets (so usually about $14 for dinner, new movie, and snacks). I’ll invite people sometimes, but most of the time when I invite people it is last minute and most people can’t make it, so I’ve resolved to going by myself, about 80% of the time if I wait for people they flake out, so it’s just better to go by myself. Less stress and less angst and anger when they flake out. Besides, I actually enjoy going to the movies by myself. I watch what I want, immerse myself in the films, and leave according to how urgent my bladder feels…or sometimes…leave and go to five or six movies in the cineplex until I find one I like.
At home, I paint, read, garden, cook, eat, write a little bit and basically get what I need to get done done. I’ve read a dozen pretty thick books in the past month. Increasingly though, I find myself just sitting on the couch or lying in my hammock and doing nothing…I’m bored of it. I’ve been thinking about getting another TV or the internet.
Used to be that when I was feeling bored like that I would go to a bar or pick up a six pack but since I haven’t been drinking that’s not really an option any longer. I don’t miss it, I just miss having something to fill in the void. The modern coffee shops just aren’t that good of third places today…I admit to spending a fair amount of time at the coffee bean, but it’s not too different from sitting alone at home…it’s just sitting alone in public. Which I don’t have a problem with by the way, it’s more interesting to watch people than not.
I was smoking more but I’ve knocked that off and I was doing a lot of yoga and pushups but I knocked that off too. I should probably start doing the yoga and pushups again…
I actually played a five player game of Risk all by myself the other night…lol. I won once and lost four times. Believe it or not though…it was fun and interesting. At least as good as playing a video game by one’s self. Slightly more pathetic though.
Of course I do get out to work. I thought this would be my dream job. It sounded so good. Pick your own schedule based on the tours you are qualified on and then take people hiking and show them the beauty of natural Hawaii. The problem is that the schedule we pick is subject to cancellation based on the tours not getting filled and we don’t know that until two hours before the tour or the night before for morning tours. Since we have had about 1/3 of tours cancelled, that means that this is a no income producing, life sucker of a job that doesn’t allow one to make plans. I was scheduled for two tours yesterday and two today. One of them went out. Maybe I need to increase that 1/3 number. The tour that did go out was a divorced husband and wife and their three kids. He and one son live here and the wife and two other sons are in Texas still. They were on a redneck dysfunctional family vacation and didn’t care about anything they saw. In fact they complained volubly that they saw no waterfalls on a tour that does not include waterfalls. Also along were a fundamentalist christian missionary couple just returned from Rwanda who were not interested in hearing about evolution or geology since the “theories are not proven” and don’t mesh with their belief in a 58,000 year old earth. And then there was the nice Indian family of 6 from Boston who were interested in everything but got to come on tour with the other 7 party poopers. Full tour and did the best I could, but you might be willing to guess that the tips were less than stellar. lol. What a disaster!
So this is a long rather introspective post. I’m not unhappy. My life is pretty good. I’m satisfied with my choices, rather satisfied enough, but I can honestly say that my home, work, geography, and social life are not good enough for me to rest on my laurels. I’ll stick around here long enough to get my degree in December and then…well…then something else.
It’s funny to hear my classmates talk about what they will do with the graduation money they will get. At times I’ve forgotten that it isn’t something everyone gets. Just like not everyone gets their parents to pay for their education. Especially when one is in their mid-thirties. When I graduate I will have accumulated about $35,000 in debt to get the degree and honestly, I can’t expect to get any graduation money gifted to me. None the less, I will be leaving this land of $7 per gallon milk and $35 a gallon honey and heading to somewhere else…. I’ll get the money. Maybe I will go find Bernest Ernstein…..

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An interesting letter from Salon- and my answer.

How many of us feel this way? Or something similar…judging by thenumber of responses, I would say there are a lot of us…

Aug. 11, 2008 | Dear Cary,
The past few years my personal life has taken a nosedive. I think the biggest factor is this anger I’ve got inside, which frequently prevents me from socializing and meeting new people (or just having a good time with people). Basically I’ve become a very grumpy middle-aged man.
This all basically started after the 2000 election. By now, I feel justifiably disgusted by the Bush administration and his supporters of course, but it’s bigger than this. I also feel my fellow Americans the past two decades or so have been awash in gleefully/mindlessly practicing the seven deadly sins, of which I believe ignorance should be added as the eighth.
Enjoy this story?
Thanks for your support.
Anyway, I know some people go to anger management therapy but I’m not sure that is for me. You associate that type of therapy with people who have snapped, people who have abused people physically as well as verbally. My anger is merely my own; I don’t lash out; I just despair, because I know lashing out would cost me (my job, family, friends).
BTW, I have been on Prozac for about 15 years for mild chronic depression. Normally I feel like Prozac has been good for me, keeping away the blue days and making my skin thicker. I also exercise a lot, running three times a week and playing soccer, but lately I’m pissed off even after a good workout! I eat pretty well and drink moderately. But lately I’m thinking my chemistry is not right (though dropping the antidepressant sounds very risky).
Can you or Salon readers offer any advice? I fear I am on a path to becoming an urban hermit, joylessly working toward retirement, and maybe not giving a toss when I get there.
Anger Issues

Read all the responses here:
Here is my response:
Vote for Nader. If he doesn’t win. Move. Take your productivity to someplace you can feel good about. Go to Spain, Norway, or a remote village somewhere. Pay taxes only to a government that you support completely. Or don’t pay taxes at all. Become that hermit and seriously dig it. Write down everything you learn. Masturbate if you need to, talk to yourself at will, when you need company, you will find it. But by all means, remove yourself from feeling responsible for what you hate. Don’t support it. Go on a starvation diet, walk everywhere, and don’t spend a dime more than you need to.
Trust me. It’s what I do. No need for the prozac.